If I Loved Myself
I wander here and there,
I look for happiness in people around,
But I still feel lost,
The never going loneliness stays
And makes me feel the never healing wounds.
Whom should I talk?
I think , sitting in a corner of my room,
I weap and curse myself,
I feel like I lost myself,
I feel I am not worth anything,
Whom should I talk?
Then I turn myself,
Towards loving myself,
A day I start with prayers,. I go around listening to songs,
I smile and laugh and feel good, I see the flowers and smile,
And admire everyone who comes along,
And then I got the magic I had,
I just realised how graceful life would have been,
If I loved myself.
If I loved myself is a poem that describes the constant battle of a person who knows the perks of loving oneself but is unable to do the same because of the societal conditioning and the contempt that the world fills us with.
The poet speaks how she wants to do better and treat herself with love and care but she can’t bring herself to do the same. This makes her gloomy and she wants that she learns the art of loving oneself. She finally feels that her magic has returned to her when she can love herself.
The poem explores the themes of self love, doubt, loneliness and getting through tough times. The poem describes the path towards self love often starts with doubts and low self esteem, but when we are perseverant and zealous we can always make it.
Thank you Aditi that you described the context of my poem so beautifully. 😇