Author: Catherine Kipgen

As I walk towards the library, I feel like I’m in an hourglass.
Stuck here in this place where there is nothing but dark.
I feel the same every day; tired and sick.
The minutes are relentless as I end up looking at the clock.
All the foolish dreams, I once had, are broken.
Everything I wanted is out of reach in the distance.
You’ve moved so fast; too fast.
We used to walk together down this winding aisle
But you’re so far ahead; leaving me behind.
I’ll linger on and endure it in this unknown place,
maybe make myself comfortable living in the past.
But I don’t want to be all alone in this deserted place,
So can you take me to you now?
Will you?
I try to follow you but it seems impossible to catch up now.
I’m losing hope
I’m walking on my way all alone; not getting anywhere.
I used to be a winner but now I am at the bottom of the barrel;
I’ve been feeling insecure lately like I’m in slow mode.
I’m afraid I’ll be left stranded by myself.
At the same time, I’m feeling so nervous as I want to move forward
But everyone else seems to be blocking my vision and overtaking me.
I don’t know if I can keep up but I’ll bare it all.
These words,“It’s okay, you can do perfectly well” gave me a lot of strength.
I’ll stand back up even on the days I want to throw away;
no matter what happens, I won’t avoid it.
As I’m just getting started, there’s always other ways.
Many times, I’ll almost fall yet there will still be a bright future ahead.
I will never give up and aim for the limit of my strength
I’ve gotta fill up the pages of my chapters as this is my own storybook.