Today …. I Let YOU Go !!

I tried so hard to hold you
but only to find myself losing everything …
I thought my love could move mountains,
not realising it was this flickering light
which needed just a tiny breeze
And it was all dark !!

Never believed until I felt this …
What it’s like to love your fullest &
not get even a bit in return !!
What it’s like to be empty handed in love &
carry this huge void in your heart.
I always thought two people fall in love equally…
Equally madly
Equally passionately
Equally longing for each other
Equally caring
Equally crying for each other…
But I guess I was chosen for this inequality …

Now that I see no hope of “US”
No “Home” that would echo in our laughter,
that would smell like our love,
that could be our “safe place”,
that we call our world !!
Hence
Today ….
I am burning those dreams
On the pyres of the same logs that were supposed to build our “Home”.
I am burning…
all those letters I wrote for you,
that sunflower field I painted for you,
all those hopes that came with every sunrise,
all those wishes I made to moon.

Today ….
I am choosing myself for the first time.
I am choosing to end this cycle of longing.
I am choosing to bury my love for you.

I wasn’t tired of loving you,
I am just tired enough of
Waiting ….!!

And I would wait no longer…
For someone who would never come,
For letters you will never write back to me,
For someone who was never supposed to be mine !!

I will keep loving you till I am dead in dirt,
but even if there’s a puny possibility of
loving myself even a bit,
I am choosing to Love myself now.
Today ….
I set myself free of this suffering …. !!
Today ….
I let YOU Go …. !!