For me everyday life sets up a big party,
Full of laughters everywhere,full throated and hearty,
Of jubilant cheers and refreshing smiles
And spent in a grand Queen’s style.

I am happy because I am reborn each day,
Keeping all miseries of life at bay,
Keeping people around joyful and happy,
Never ever being unhappy or snappy.

Life gives me to sing and dance,
With each new day there comes up a new chance,
To fill someone’s life with selfless love
And of an everlasting relationship thereof.

A party where I get to interact with new people
Where like a free stream I gorgeously gurgle
In gleeful shouts and create happy ripples,
Create everlasting,happy stories that are simple.

Everyday is a social gathering,
With people bantering and chattering,
Do not believe in smothering
The voices, but with love resort to pampering.

Pampering the hearts and lives I touch,
With care and delicate moves as much,
Even if there is as much as a single grudge,
I will never prejudge and their lives retouch.

Life everyday is a big celebration,
A colourful and vibrant function,
Let’s enjoy the soiree and festivities,
The happy activities of heavenly creativity.

Let us all celebrate life in jubilation,
Full of enthusiasm and exuberance,
Enjoy as if there is no tomorrow
Because an extra day from it you cannot borrow.

So just enjoy and take each day as a party,
Where everything is beautiful and arty,
Cordiality and happiness galore,
Simple joys and tears pure.

It is just this day ,today,
That is going to be your day,
So have your say and live it the way you want,
Do not let anything hamper or daunt,
Your purpose of helping,loving,smiling, loving,
Giggling,chattering, dancing ,singing,
Do whatever your heart directs you to do,
Live and love your life, before you bid adieu.

-Madhumita

In that hideous mad garb,
Oh why did you stab
Me and ripped me apart,
My blood gushing in a spurt.

Cannot you see my wound bleeds,
On my forehead the perspiration beads,
Painful,piercing tears my eyes shed
Quietly, as my heart too,slowly bled.

How long can I subject myself,
To such dastardly acts of yourself,
Wherein you cannot think of anything
But just let the dastards in your mind win.

Why do you torture me to such extents,
Reduce my whole self to mere oddments,
Out of sheer disgust,I shiver and shudder,
As my heart strangely flutters and bewilders.

What overcomes you, I fail to understand!
What gets that madness fanned?
Making your entire sensibilities disband,
Locking all your emotions,your feelings jammed.

My entire self riddled with open wounds,
Wonders how to stop this brutal trend,
When you are out of all bounds
And do not respond to calls or sounds.

You enter a world of your own,
Where you dangerously bemoan,
Your inferiorities,your failures,
Displaying a ghastly behaviour.

You harm yourself,and kill a part of me,
You break my trust and try to flee,
From the truth of your situation and reality,
Wonder why you stoop down to such immaturity!

No more can I take this asperity,
Your detachment from senses and insularity,
I bleed and cry in pain;
But you remain unmoved,in your own domain.

When already I did cede,
From everything in our relationship I secede,
Then why am I left to bleed and benumb,
Beware lest I succumb
To all your mad atrocities,
And collapse and breakdown in front of your montrosities.
You may be then left alone to fight your inner demons,
With deeper wounds,pains and a life without any reason.

-Madhumita

The anxiety and depression,
Are all repurcussions,
Of a part not so well played,
Of decisions delayed,
Of trusts misplaced,
Of not being able to well communicate.

Failing to communicate with yourself,
Or addressing your innerself,
Not taking into confidence your near ones,
Hiding facts from your dear ones,
Not living up to your commitments,
Making yourself inaccessible and distant.

You shut yourself up in your shell,
Refusing anyways to tell,
Anything of what you thought and planned,
Keeping your thoughts crammed
Inside you, without an outlet,
Making you imagine all things farfetched.

You kept on giving your consents,
Even to plans and projects suspect,
Even when in doubts you went ahead
And all your wrong decisions you upheld,
Went against the ones, you so trusted,
See now,in the process you yourself are rejected.

Rejected and dejected,
Unable to comprehend,
Your wrongs and mistakes,
You stagger and traipse,
The rejections leave you with a heartache,
Which you cannot easily efface.

You cannot possibly please everyone ,
When out there,you cannot say ‘Yes’ to each one,
Trying to say ‘No’ is a bit difficult,
But saves you from unwanted predicaments,
You have to stop being egotistical,
Put a full stop to being inexplicable.

Rejections and dejection,
Lead you to immense depression,
Cut off from all forms of expression,
You suffer from suffocation,
Leading to more pitiful situations,
Waiting for all ills in desperation.

Giving rise to immense frustration,
A palpitating impatience,
Holed up inside,without any conversation,
With no motivation or inspiration,
You take your first step in all complication
Towards your own devastation.

Pained are your dear ones to see you thus,
At times to see you down the ruts,
When you attempt the nervous cuts,
They cry as it deeply hurts,
To see their own suffer so much,
Helplessly they watch as they cannot do too much.

So open up, and help yourself,
Adopt ‘ourself’, not ‘myself’,
Trust only those who trust you,
Who are worth of your trust and you,
Do not give in to pressure tactics,
Make, listening to people a holy practice.

Communicate more with one and all,
Make yourself easy and accessible,
Learn to say No, it lessens worries,
In the process,happiness it carries;
Dump all the lies behind,
Don’t trust everyone like a blind.

Build up people’s trust in you,
Make yourself their confidante too,
Come out of your selfish shell,
Start smiling some more as well,
Shorten the distances between hearts,
Draw out new relation charts.

First of all break the solid wall around,
Make the inner voices calm down,
Do not feel left out and let down,
Get up and going in the rebound,
Fighting all things adverse,
Making all fears disperse.

Fight away all the blues,
Nursing carefully your hearts bruise,
Fight the dark shadows away,
Keeping them always at a bay,
Depression is a disease that can be fought,
No power it has to make one distraught.

Scare away all depression
Sadness and dejection,
Happiness is one of the weapons,
Courage being another protection,
Come out of it with all attention and affection
Freshen up and stop your digression.

Forget the past and start anew,
To all your frights bid adieu,
Like others,this phase shall pass through,
Do not let anything devalue,
Your courage, inner strength and fortitude,
Begin with a sense of gratitude and immense aptitude,
Your success is now overdue,
Compose yourself and walk towards the new avenues.
No thoughts can depress you,
No actions can suppress you,
Nothing can stop you to access,
What you want to possess ;
Never ever feel distressed,
Neither oppressed,
Act with absoluteness,
Start repossessing everything with smart astuteness.

-Madhumita

I soaked in the silky smooth light,
Everything around,beautiful and bright,
People moving around freely,
Everyone looked so blissfully
Happy and serene,
Everybody so lovable and genuine,
I didn’t understand where I was,
Other than the fact that unknown twas.
I moved along for sometime,
Lending my ears to musical chimes,
I felt a holy calm and at peace,
Though alone,still at ease.

Beautiful spring flowers bloomed,
Tall green,pruned trees with them rhymed,
Crystal clean springs gurgled and flowed,
Fresh life giving fragrant wind breezed.
As this place tried to enchant,
All of a sudden I met an Aunt,
From the earth long lost,
On seeing her my happiness was utmost,
She hugged me and welcomed me warmly,
Although I never remembered her so fondly.

She spoke so lovingly,her face had a beautiful calmness,
Around,full of extreme adorableness,
She took my arms and took me around,
As I soaked in the heavenly surrounds,
The fragrant air and the beauty abundant
A creation so resplendent,
There we came across a couple’s presence,
And behold they were my grandparents ,
My grandfather whom I had seen in pictures,
My grandmother whom I had seen as a toddler,
The ‘unknown’ but known faces brought tears
An unexplained amount of love and cheer.

Some time I spent with them,
Aunty pulled me at the hem,
From them I took my leave,
To see them happy,was so releaved.
My next stoppage brought me face to face
With my maternal grandmom,by God’s grace
She was here with her better half
And her elder son,my uncle,with that same old laugh.
They had me pampered
And mollycoddled,
I felt like a child in their presence
And was not at all bothered by the absence
Of my family members,
Nor did I miss them,nor remember.

But one thing did raise a question,
How did this Aunt know all my kin!
All who had departed,
And long separated!
The happiness of meeting them left me excited but numb, Was speechless, smiling,choking with emotions but dumb.
Suddenly I heard a cry,
That was a baby cry wry,
Oh God! That was my two month old crying,
Instantly I felt my heart dying,
To see him and hold him,
To cuddle him and embrace him.

But how? Where am I? Did I lose my way?
Someone please lead me away
To my son, he cries for me,
Oh! How could I let him be,
Crying and hungry,
Without his Maa,alone and dreary.
His cries worsened,
As I forgot all my relations,
I cried myself hoarse
And in due course,
Was brought to a piercing light,
It pierced through my inside
And then I heard a roaring voice,
“This is the wrong choice.”
“Send her back to where she belongs”
And was pushed in a tunnel long,
Full of light , in it I twirled
And furled,like a twig I churned.

My baby , my baby I screamed,
Lo! I then with a jerk landed,
Amidst voices and tinkering instruments
And in immense pain,
Surrounded by nurses,doctors and green panes.
I looked for the people I had just met,
Realised,that of their live selves,they were silhouettes,
They were all gone and dead,
Still so much life and love they shared.

Had I been to the ‘Land of The Dead’
And forced to return to my bed
Because of a wrong choice made!
Or because my son’s infant cries prayed?
Oh! why did I have to come back to a virtual world?
To false faces, false promises, false words!
But no ,I am here now for a purpose,
To raise my child, to nurse,
Then amongst all my world mates resurface,
To offer my love,labour and services,
Selflessly and lovingly,
Happily and willingly,
To fight all ills daringly,
Determinedly and affectingly,.
I know now,that there is another world beyond,
Where my loved ones so fond,
Are waiting for me with open arms,
To welcome me with all their love and warmth.
Till then I keep moving on,
Waiting for that golden dawn.

-Madhumita

Let go!!
Don’t just flutter
To & fro,
Let them fly away into thin air,
To make your heart & spaces clear.
They don’t at all matter,
The memories are just a clutter.
Throw them out
Of the window,
Have not the slightest of doubt,
They are no more a part of the show,
They are now history,
No more a part
Of your story,
So tear them apart,
Slice ,shred,let them depart.
Strength and vision
Are your gains..
Wash down any strains
With tear showers like the rains.
Things to learn from
Them though are many ,
Remember they were mere storms
Passed ,gone ,no more part of your Destiny!!!
So just let it all go!!!!!
-Madhumita